So this is how it Feels

So this is how it feels
I never thought this feeling existed
The longing and agony the pain one feels when there love one isn’t there

The distain of the mirage that the smell you smell is really not there
The heavenly scent the aroma I smelt
The beautiful skin under my finger tips when I kiss you
When we talk my finest moments are dreamed
Islands and kids that we could share
A lust of romance and a motion of love

When you aren’t there I feel myself alone
My heart slows down and my ears go deaf
They call my name and I don’t answer they say I’m not focused
But I am focused on you
When your body isn’t there
Your side of the bed is empty
A void at a knock at my door
The inefficient love for your delay of seeing
The gallant dismay of communication
Your pretending to love May you ever know how it feel
Do you ever find yourself feeling so stressed because you haven’t murmured that name?

Have your heart stop because you hadn’t heard their voice or seen their face
Had your appetite reduced because nothing fed you more than there hug and kiss
Have you dismissed your day for your day wasn’t worth living alone?

Swearing and attitude took over your spirit because you doubted the intentions
You felt the whole story wasn’t there the feeling of love took over your happiest thoughts were spoiled
Disappearing was a thought constant on your mind
Because the other was always gone
Always an excuse and a tear always shed
My heart to bleed eternally
My stomach churns and turns inside
My eye filled of dry tears
And my head ache from thinking why

Why didn’t you come?
Why didn’t we lay?
Why do I love you?
And why are you missed

And all my symptoms are medicine by your kiss

My earth shakes and my knees buckle
My eyes cross and my elbows turn in
My hair relaxes and this was off the thought so imaginary that fantasy was reality

Reality hadn’t set in that you probably didn’t feel the same
That I was just another leaf in the wind and not the seed that rooted the tree
But everything you were and are to me you will always be